Whee!!

2011-11-06T05:18:00.000-08:00

I've moved!

https://alstonchong.wordpress.com/

1,2,3 4 5

2011-09-27T02:29:00.001-07:00

What am i to do:

I could

1. Go out and actively get it.
2. Wait for it.
3. Convince myself i will never need it.

Which choice should i take?

New Blog Look!

2011-09-12T00:25:00.000-07:00

Alright, I have FINALLY changed my blog template ever since i created it 4 years ago. And, i started blogging again after like.. 8 months lol. Damn terrible, i know. Anyway, army is OVER. Finally. At this moment, there's only Mr Encik Toh who haven't ORD. Jia You! 1 more month! Anyway, school started, and i have this awesome 2 day week timetable. :))) I'm damn proud of it and I must announce to the whole world. You'll never know what a 5 day weekend feels like week after week. Haha.

Anyway, speaking of school, group projects have been amounting. Currently, i have 5 group projects due and I've only started on ONE. GG. I think my next few weeks will be filled with school 'outings'. Honestly speaking, I'm not digging this whole uni idea. I mean, its really hard to find non-superficial friends in school. Maybe it's just me. Plus I realize I'm learning alot on my own. I mean we pay such exorbitant school fees and the prof expects you to do your own research on the topic and present in class (TWC). Like quite pointless right, I mean I paid you to teach me. If u want me to learn independently, I can do that on my own right. The best part is when we are required to do such 'self research', the Prof doesn't even help by giving places where we might find good information and just expects us to google everything. I can google quite well tyvm. Ok enough complaining about school.

Excited about lion king at the end of this month! Alright! My second broadway musical. Everyone should watch a broadway musical, it's just a whole new experience. Alright, I have no idea when I'll blog again so I shall stop here.

To stop thinking and to start doing

2011-01-11T04:45:00.000-08:00

Recently, my friend made a very sensible statement to me. He said, "sometimes we shouldn't think too much because we'll end up stagnant." Apparently his counselor told this to him. I can say i've always belonged to the type of people who thinks more than does. I think about alot of things and i always end up firstly, forgetting what i thought about.. Secondly, even if i remember and do carry it out, I only do it for awhile and i forget after that. I guess the wisdom lies in that, no matter how much we think or how much we think we know what's going to happen, the truth is, things don't always go as planned.

We may think following a particular lifestyle is going to get you those results, but, in the end, circumstances shape your decisions and you may not have the same opportunities or same circumstances as someone else. Why we become stagnant is because, sometimes there are so many ways to do something, and at times these ways contradict each other.

For example, some people say you should try everything so that you'll actually know what you don't like and what you really like. While other people say, you shouldn't be a jack of all trades and master of none. Find something that makes you money and then concentrate on that, while later in life when you have enough money, you can do what you want. These two lifestyles obviously contradict and which should we follow? We will never know.

So the advice would be to not think about it and just do it. Along the way, self-reflection is good as you are constantly asking yourself is this the way i want it to be done. Is this what i truly want. I cannot count the countless hours of thinking and coming to no valuable conclusion or gained any valuable wisdom. Perhaps the only wisdom that can be gained is through self-reflection of past actions and self-correction.

When you get locked out of your bunk

2010-11-22T05:16:00.000-08:00

Sorry i'm just a little bored. Perhaps i shall try to list down what i truly believe in.

Firstly, i feel the truth about life is, the more you find out about it, the more you feel it's meaningless and that there is SO MUCH pain in life that even if there is some feeble sense of meaning in your life, it will be easily shadowed by the pain you have to go through.

Sorry for sounding suicidal but i feel this is true. Just think about your stages of life and you'll see eye to eye. First, childhood. You live each day thinking what you could do when you are older and how much more fun you could have.
Secondly, school-attending age. This spreads all the way from when you're 6 till you're 24?. Things that suck about school: you slog so hard just to get that paper certificate. Just think about the numerous hours spent at home, in school , in libraries just mugging away. And now, when you look back, did you think that PSLE cert/O level/A level cert was really worth those hours in your short life? Even at the tender age of 12, based on your PSLE score, you start to get discriminated (NA, NT, Express, Special) and realize if you want to have a financially stable future, you better concentrate on your grades.

Now, what happens after school? Work of course. Full 365 days of it, Les 14 days of leave. Think about this. From age 24-60 (sg wants to raise the retirement age to 68 wth) , that's 36 years of your life and almost 50% of your life spent on working. When you're 60, of course you won't be able to enjoy life as much anymore and you start having old age problems (rheumatism, poor appetite, diabetes risk ; you cant even enjoy a nice bowl of white rice wth) .

These carry you through till you die. Of course the degree of old age problems depends on what you did during your productive work life. If you didn't plan for your retirement, you could very well be living off others and being a burden, increasing the pain of continuing to live.

I used to think, all these would be alright so long as you had love in your heart and love around you. Now, i realize how much work a relationship really is. When you're in a relationship, it's imperative you have to make sacrifices.
Based on my own experience, somehow these sacrifices take away the simple joys of life.

For example, I like playing dota with my group of friends on friday nights/weekends. But because i have to be with her/reply her messages, i find i have to sacrifice this. Now, you can say sacrificing dota shouldn't be a problem, i mean shouldn't spending time with your love be more rewarding than playing a computer game? Maybe its just me, but there's this unparalleled joy from winning a dota match together as a well coordinated team that i think girls can never understand. Just like how i can never really understand how girls like shopping.

This is just one aspect, the other aspect is you have to limit, or at least be wary of your current relationships with other people, especially girls. I'm sure all of you can relate to this. It is SO difficult to still be very close to your friends and meet frequently and have a girlfriend at the same time. Maybe i'm doing it wrong, maybe it's just me, but i find it's such a great sacrifice. It's like trading your friends for someone else, which i would hate to do.

Another aspect is that, open communication, which is vital to good relationships, might not work 100% of the time due to the simple fact that the truth hurts.

A trival example, yr girlfriend asks you if actress A (who has a perfect hot bod ) is hot. You tell the truth and say yes. Then she asks you if she's hot or A is hotter. Now here therein lies the problem. You would definitely think your own girlfriend is hot right, if not she won't be your girlfriend.

So how do you answer this question? Would you tell the truth and say "A is hotter, cos her body is nicer". I'm not saying this is a wrong answer, but chances are, your girlfriend would be hurt by this statement. So, maybe you're not a superficial kind of guy and you tell her, "although her body is nicer, i think you are hotter as a whole". And she will shoot you and say, "so you think my body is not nice la!". GG. Or lastly, you can lie, to her and yourself and say, "Your body is the hottest in the whole universe and no one will ever be hotter than you". Kudos to all of you whose girlfriend is Jessica Alba/Angelina Jolie.

A more serious example, perhaps this might only happen after many many years in a relationship. Suppose you meet this person, she/he is very friendly, cliques very well with you, you have this sort of strange attraction to this person that you can't quite explain or keep it out of your head. At least for now.

Now, this is very normal and common so you know it and can't deny it unless you're delusional. It is not love you are sure of it, it's just a dumb infatuation. Now, the problem lies with whether to tell your husband/wife. Logically, you think this infatuation is definitely not going to last long and you're not going to let it last long, so it's going to end with no consequences. So, why create additional pain to your partner in knowing that you were infatuated with someone else even if its a small infatuation and for a short while. Another way that the truth hurts.

The problem with open communication i feel, is not to be 100% honest and blatant about everything you feel and you do. It would be pretty disastrous. You must put in effort to maintain a 99.98% honesty rate. This is definitely not easy work because at times you really have to debate internally and ask yourself whether you would rather choose to tell the truth and hurt your love or tell a white lie and spare them the pain. Perhaps i'm wrong, do give your thoughts.

And of course, in relationships, guys have to man up and take responsibility for everything. What i mean is, guys cannot afford to feel insecure. We must be absolutely sure of ourselves at all times, and even if we are not we must hide it. Because, from what i heard, girls wont fall for insecure guys.

And also, guys must be responsible for the finances of the family. I'm not saying girls are not responsible or they don't need to work or they should concentrate on being a house wife. Im saying guys should always strive to be financially sustainable while it is optional for girls to provide for the family. Guys must be that rock or infallible pillar in a girl's life and i can tell you upfront how difficult that is. For girls its okay to feel insecure, its okay to feel unsure about oneself. But for guys, if u feel insecure, its bad, its like you're mentally weak, and if you yourself are insecure, how can you reassure your girl when she's feeling insecure herself? How can you be that rock for your girl. I guess this might be unique to me, as i've been truly struggling with my self-esteem.

All in all, i feel relationships are definitely not as simple as it seems. I guess i'm truly not ready for one, but as each day passes, i don't feel more ready than before. Maybe i'm missing something, maybe it's my character and personality and how i do things, maybe i'm better of single. What i know is, life is 98% pain and 2% true joy.

When you feel you don't belong anywhere

2010-10-30T02:51:00.000-07:00

This is befuddling, bamboozling and bewildering.

I feel like duh shit rite nao, but its not the sad kind of feeling.

Basically its, befuddling, bamboozling and bewildering.

Oh, dont try to guess cos it has nothing to do with this blog's title.

Well, as 2lt jorim tan yi-zheng always says, life sux take drugs.

Haha just kidding.

2010-09-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

I feel so so empty rite nao.

Happiness

2010-09-09T13:07:00.000-07:00

I wonder... What holds the greatest importance in people's lives.

It is interesting how we being humans with the same reward systems, have different ideas on which kind of happiness is the best for us.

On the first level, we mainly find happiness in these three routes. Firstly, a successful career, I.e. Any sort of achievement in life. Secondly, relationships and thirdly, money. Money is not to be confused with a successful career. The pursuit of money can come without a career, I.e marrying a rich husband, making quick bucks on stocks. A successful career on the other hand has more to do with the prestige of yr job/achievement. Eg. The CEO of Goldman Sachs or a successful entrepreneur, although it usually also means you're rolling in money, but not always.

However, even in these 3 main routes, we also differ on the second level.

Some of us want to be captains of industry, others want their name to live on forever. Eg, Newton's law. In the first aspect of happiness, having a succesful career or notable achievement in life, we derive happiness from the fact we have achieved something great, outdoing one's own expectations, testing one's limits, breaking one's barriers. This form of happiness is not for everyone though, as some of us might think ourselves too ordinary to be achieve anything great. But actually, the more ordinary you are, the more people view your achievements as something great. Most great people in history had very humble beginnings, Einstein was considered a slow learner and many others.

The second form of happiness, relationships and be branched into 4 main categories. Relationships with friends, relationships with husband/wife, relationships with family and lastly relationships with God. Which is most important to you?. Which relationship would you most likely sacrifice if you didn't have time?. I think all our choices are personal and reasons vary from individual to individual but which relationship holds the greatest importance to you?. Is it your friends who have known you for so long and been there for you for as long as you can remember? Or is it your husband/wife who promises to love you till death do you part. Or your family? Who have taken care of you all your life. Or is it God, the enigmatic being, who promises you a wondrous life on earth and a even more wondrous afterlife. Whichever kind of relationship you choose, remember you have to sacrifice another. And don't be fooled that you can have all of them as you have limited time and you are bound to choose between them.

The third form of happiness, the pursuit of $ is something which i personally feel is the most unfulfilling of them all. But strangely enough, some people still choose this as their most important kind of happiness to them and are willing to sacrifice all others. The value of $ is undeniable and a certain amount is definitely prerequisite to the other kinds of happiness mentioned above, but exactly how much money is enough? I think again, this varies between individuals, but we can all agree, the more time you spend on getting more $, the less time you have to pursue the other kinds of happiness mentioned above which lasts much longer and makes you feel more whole. So how much is really enough?

Dont misunderstand as i'm not saying you can only have one kind of happiness. It is possible to pursue all the kinds of happiness i have mentioned above, but then, your life span is limited and time is of importance. You are bound to choose between all these different forms and so one of them would have to be of greatest importance to you. Choose wisely and do not regret only after you've lived most of your life pursing the wrong kind of happiness.

2010-08-09T18:19:00.001-07:00

Who knew it would be so Damn hard...

2010-08-01T02:13:00.000-07:00

This blog is WAY too old.

2010-03-12T21:48:00.001-08:00

Judgement day finally came.

And thank god it was only a $100 fine.

IF NOT the consequences would be too dire to imagine

and i would have been kicked out of uni.

Thank god.

2010-03-05T16:44:00.000-08:00

Finally......

Bio A Chem A Maths A GP B.

YESS! WHEE HAHAHA!.

3SG CHONG HANHUA, ALSTON

YESS AGAIN! Hahaha.. oh man glad this week was over.. =D.

2010-02-22T04:55:00.001-08:00

Tmr = judgement day.

2010-02-17T06:35:00.000-08:00

Well.. Lets see. Its been 5 months since my last blog post.
And... at the request of vivien and annabel, i shall write a blogpost. Zzz. Haha, kidding.

Ok, I HATE army.. and I did something i thought i wouldnt ever do.

I.. took A levels again. Zzz. Was more fun this time i don't know why.
Results coming out on 5th march ahhhhh!.

I realized.. i can't work under stress! At all. =(.

And.. recently i've actually gotten into some trouble in army.

What i can say is I hope things don't go the wrong way.. which everyone keeps telling me it will. Well, reminding me.

If it does go the wrong way.. I may not be here anymore. Ya.

I don't really know what to think anymore..

Sometimes i think Everything doesn't matter anymore.. Nothing matters in this world.

We all grow old and die. And the time between is the link between now and death. And that time passes so quickly!.

I think life's too short for NS. Lol. But then again, i might be wrong!. Life might just as well be long enough to burn 2 yrs to protect this country.

Which there's no reason for me to if things go badly.

Den again, maybe i'm just to pessimistic abt everything.

Sigh.. I dont know what to say.. I've no life now so i can't blog about whats happening in my life.

And if i blog abt NS, no one's gonna get it. So... Sian.

Haha, thats depressing post no.1. Dont really feel like blogging anymore.. shall end here.

2009-09-12T05:42:00.001-07:00

LOL. Inactive. nice..

2009-06-10T21:35:00.001-07:00

Hell break...

2009-04-17T09:49:00.001-07:00

exactly one week to hell.

2009-03-22T09:43:00.000-07:00

Oh happy day..
Oh wondrous day..
Oh silent day..
=)

2009-03-06T08:39:00.000-08:00

A Maths
B Bio
B Chem
C Econs
C Gp

Here for all to see. zzz

2009-01-26T19:29:00.000-08:00

晴天娃娃 by jay chou

Chorus:
我討厭下雨天
wo tao yan xia yu tian
I loathe a rainy day

親愛的你快出現
qin ai de ni kuai chu xian
Dearest you should promptly appear

不然我就告訴媽咪你偷牽我的手
bu ran wo jiu gao su ma mi ni tou qian wo de shou
Else I will tell mother that you secretly hold my hand

我喜歡夏天你穿背心的感覺
wo xi huan xia tian ni chuan bei xin de gan jue
I enjoy summer because of the feeling when you wear a singlet/vest

每天都想粘都很甜
mei tian dou xiang nian dou hen tian
Want to be attached to you day after day when everyday is so sweet

Lol dunno why the sudden liking to this song's lyrics..

2009-01-01T07:02:00.000-08:00

Haha im going to try something..
Summarizing months oct-december

A levels over.. sucked, never wanna take it again
Got to start learning badminton.. Woo hoo! =D
Got much further apart from my jc classmates :(
Now im only close to 1 or 2 of them.. nv knew it would end like this
Glad JC was over.. didnt miss much of it
Feel as if im all on my own now.. haha wierd but its different
Start of freedom =D
Feels good to dota everyday and go out with friends
practice piano and go for badminton training and piano lessons
and without a single care about studies =D =D =D
Life's so peaceful this way =)

Just came back from taiwan
made a few friends namely,
Audrey Ho, Bernice Ho, Cheryl Houng and Jacqueline Houng
J1 ,Sec 2 , P6, Sec 2 in 2008 respectively
The P6 girl looks really old.. hahaha
I learnt something during the trip
I realised its actually possible to nt feel what i feel everyday
It is possible to change things for the better..
I just hope the days ahead can be just like the week before

Taiwan overall was not bad coz i had good company =)
Thx guys =D
Nv wanna travel again haha.

2008-10-09T09:36:00.001-07:00

Here's a preview into what ACJC does when it doesn't get payment for a magazine we didn't order.
Here are the exact messages they sent me.

Joyce LEE/MOE:hi. can u pse remember to pay $69 for AC & 07/08 college publications to the gen off tmr OK.thks - 06/10/2008

Joyce LEE/MOE:last reminder to pay $69 cash to the gen off for 07-08 college publications tmr wed 8 oct - 07/10/2008

Joyce LEE/MOE:It's 1.30pm already. Hv u paid $69 for 07/08 college publication to the gen office? No Payment no 'A' level cert leh! - 08/10/2008

Joyce LEE/MOE:It's 3pm now. Delay paying college pub & we r forced to delay yr 'A' level cert. tell us if u hav problem. thks (i tried smsing them and there was no reply) - 08/10/2008

Joyce LEE/MOE:last day of sch doesn't mean no need to pay college pub fees.It means u want us to hold back yr 'A' level cert next yr. - 09/10/2008

LOL.. if ACJC were to be a bank or loanshark company.. sure fail one.. hahaha. But den again, they sound pretty desperate for us to pay a college publication we didnt order and prints 4 times a year for $69 bucks! PLUS.. $10 each month for sports complex fees.. which adds up to $240 for yr 2 yrs in college.. just to take exams in the exam halls..and swim a little.. and do a little gym in a place where broken machines are just a everyday thing.. WATCH OUT ALL PEOPLE INTENDING TO GO ACJC! YOU BETTER HAVE A REALLY FULL WALLET!

2008-10-03T18:41:00.000-07:00

all i wish is for someone to appreciate me for who i am, who i'm not and who i want to be...

2008-09-18T08:07:00.000-07:00

Anglo-Chinese Junior college (ACJC) charges $60+ for a school magazine (echo) which prints about 4 copies a year and gives them out to students as if it were free, not acknowledging the people who actually have recieved the magazine and no official reciept is given. Most importantly they DO NOT tell us we had to PAY for the magazine before giving it out for the whole 2 years and gives us a notice at the end of the 2 years notifying the cost of the magazines which we didnt even order or indicated we wanted. wow. So much for ac's college values: INTEGRITY

2008-08-27T08:34:00.000-07:00

i drove a car today.! =)

2008-08-21T00:10:00.000-07:00

Come and support me
1 for $10 ea
2 for $7.50 ea
4 for $6.25 ea
Time: 7.30p.m
Date: 13th sept 2008
Venue: ACJC Centre for Performing Arts
25 Dover Close East

I'll be playing Brahms rhapsody no.2 and Argentine dances by Ginestera
My first real concert haha
if u wanna go you can just tag me
P.S This is NOT an AC production

2008-07-19T02:50:00.001-07:00

IMSOOSAD! =(

2008-07-12T21:21:00.000-07:00

What is MY motivation?

2008-06-15T11:35:00.000-07:00

Off to malaysia i go.. AGAIN
sian don really feel like going..
i dunno why..
i gt NO time to do hw.. im soo screwed
im leaving like.. today? till thursday or friday..
zzz mark is going to kill me..
how to finish all his tuition hw by friday! waaaah
the more i think the more SIAN it is..
i muuuusssttt study harrrrd!
to date i havent done a single piece of hw!!!
can u believe it.. not one single piece..!
and i still gt mood for holiday.. to snorkel..
...
gp outlines suck.. haha
too bad.. but it really sux

2008-06-03T11:57:00.000-07:00

Its 3.am now.. wow.. im sleeping really late nowadays..
and on the request by vivien im blogging!
Shes talking to me abt.. *******
Haha.. haiz..

Studying is sooo booooooring.......
can someone pls tell me how to finish
revising everything by august???

I feel really bad abt something..
i know its my fault and all but..
zzz dunno how to and what to say to that person
Anyway sorry to whoever is concerned..
haiz dont even know if its any use..
And vivien's incorrigible!!
Zzz..

I wanna watch kungfu panda and Narnia!!
No ones going to watch wif me.. sian..
I really got nothing to say!......
Maybe i shld really let this blog commit suicide...
cut it into small parts and put in black plastic bag
and then throw into the river..

I miss ppl in band.. haha

This is getting super random..

I feel as if im really hopeless at times...
Haiz what to do.. i guess i really am

Im going for cip trip to malaysia on the 9th to
paint murals!.. wow how exciting..
we'll be sitting val's car..
and joanne and her parents and vincent
will be in the other car..! woah how exciting
yi jia tuan ju! lol

Current mood: Demoralized.. OK lah!
not so bad lah.. just abit sian.. haha

2008-05-20T07:30:00.000-07:00

I got silver for NAPFA!!! YES!
NO MORE RUNNINGGGG!!
HURRAY !!
i haatee 2.4.

2008-05-20T07:29:00.001-07:00

曲: 周杰倫
Qu: Zhou Jie Lun
Music: Jay Chou

词: 徐若瑄
Ci: Xu Ruo Xuan
Lyrics: Vivian Hsu

Translation: Jo - www.jay-chou.net

妳說我像一個小孩總愛讓妳猜
ni shuo wo xiang yi ge xiao hai zong ai rang ni cai
You say I’m like a child, who always loves to make you guess

我說妳才像個小孩總要我說才明白
wo shuo ni cai xiang ge xiao hai zong yao wo shuo cai ming bai
I say you’re like a child, who always needs me to make it clear

有些事太快失去了等待障礙沒了期待
you xie shi tai kuai shi qu le deng dai zhang ai mei le qi dai
Somethings happen too fast, love the wait, obstacles, lost the hope

我們的愛怎麼才自然每次溝通不來
wo men de ai zen me cai zi ran mei ci gou tong bu lai
Our love, how could it be natural, everytime we try to communicate

就要離開就說不要愛
jiu yao li kai jiu shuo bu yao ai
You walk away and say you won’t love anymore

我掉進愛情懸崖跌太深爬不出來
wo diao jin ai qing xuan ya die tai shen pa bu chu lai
I fell off the clift of love, fell too deep that I can’t climb out

下降的速度太快來不及踏上未來
xia jiang de su du tai kuai lai bu ji ta shang wei lai
The speed of falling was too great, that I couldn’t have even step onto future

妳的愛反覆徘徊打亂我呼吸節拍哎~ 愛
ni de ai fan fu pai huai da luan wo hu xi jie pai ai~ ai
Your love comes and goes continuously, disturbing my breathing rhythm, aye-love

該怎麼逃開我控制不來
gai zen me tao kai wo kong zhi bu lai
How can I escape, I can't control it

我掉進愛情懸崖回想起妳的可愛
wo diao jin ai qing xuan ya hui xiang qi ni de ke ai
I fell off the clift of love, remembering your adorableness

傻傻的還在等待以為妳還會回來
sha sha de huan zai deng dai yi wei ni huan hui hui lai
Foolishly continuing to wait here, thinking you’d still come back

你的脸慢慢离开
ni de lian man man li kai
Your face slowly departs

时间快将我掩埋
shi jian kuai jiang wo yan mai
I‘m almost buried by time

消失的太快我负荷不来
xiao shi de tai kuai / wo fu he bu lai
Disappeared too quickly, I can't take it

Repeat

2008-04-26T09:55:00.000-07:00

Random photos..

Alston loves SD1 !!

2008-04-26T09:41:00.000-07:00

Sorry i took so long to upload the pictures lazy lar.. here are they.
anyway the woman in the picture is shaun sim's mum.. haha

2008-03-25T08:10:00.001-07:00

I sat the singapore flyer today!
wantheng's jealous! hahahahha
shall post pictures another time

2008-03-01T19:50:00.000-08:00

On wednesday, i was on the train home frm bugis
when there was a woman hu had difficulty standing up.
She called out to the woman infront of her and asked for help
saying she wanted to get of the train in chinese..
The woman held her arms and lifted her up from the chair..
Then, she suddenly let out a cry as if she was feeling pain
just from standing up..
everyone else was looking at the scene as the woman
held her arms and supported her to the train door.
In my mind i was thinking whats wrong wif her.
y she like cried while standing up and wheres
she from.. it nv came across me how to help her..
When the train stopped the woman surprisingly gt
off the train wif her and fetched her all the way out of
the mrt..
i felt quite ashamed coz if it were me i'll probably
just bring her to the door and leave her at the station
it nv occurred to me i should bring her out and even
bring her home?
why dont i think of how to help and instead think of
who she is and why she's like that.?
i felt quite bad after that and just dont understand
why i think this way..

anyway i recently discovered something which
i felt extremely disappointed in...
Its like youre being let down and betrayed..
i hope one day the truth will surface
and justice be done..

2008-02-17T06:01:00.000-08:00

To all my friends: i will work hard
a promise i will keep...

2008-01-26T07:17:00.000-08:00

Yes... ive finally decided to blog again...
School is sianed.. rushing hw everyday...
bluargh..
anyway.. to my good friend..
i wish you will get what u wish for..
as a friend i wld hope u wld get what u want..
hopefully the news will come soon!

Alston loves watching the cloudless night sky
full of stars as far as the eye can see
sparkling ever so faithfully..

anyway nowadays my week is really quite packed..
monday i have piano class.. and with theory i
end ard 8 plus..
tuesday.. band..... till 8?
wednesday.. gp tuition at bugis from 7-9
it takes 1 hr to get there and 1 hr to get baq.. -.-
thursday.. sectionals.. till 6.30?
friday.. maths tuition wif mark.. from 5-7
and after school i have gp remedial..! wow....
sat.. band.. again.. 10-6
sunday.. only free day..
yeah.. thats abt it..

i am quite sianed abt some ppl..
and quite sianed of myself..
zzz...
to die is easy..
to find a way to live through life is difficult..
to give up is easy..
to carry on is difficult..
finding the purpose in life
finding something that can genuinely bring you joy..
and im pretty sure YOU are one of those..
the lack of knowledge that there exists someone else like you..
this lack of knowledge is self-imposed?
or is it genuinely not there...
im more feeling the self-imposed side..
well.. one day i hope this will change..

2007-12-28T07:19:00.001-08:00

曲名：真实 歌手：张惠妹

你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼
记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人
都像我一样笨

只怕再问对彼此都太残忍
我能感觉另外一个人
我等等笑容换成泪痕
爱在崩溃的时候比较真

太多疑问知道答案又如何
原来容忍不需要天份
只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实
爱为何这样的讽刺
我忘了这是第几次
一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实
爱让人失去了理智
会不会是我太自私
拒绝更寂寞的日子

[放不开也看不见未来
难道这种不完美
才是爱情真实的样子

listen:http://AlstonChong.fileave.com/zhanghuimei-zhenshi.mp3

2007-12-16T08:42:00.000-08:00

YESS.. no more waking up early till the 21st !!
Im seriously quite drained from all the many many long band practices..
Anyway, band fest was quite fun..
I met this guy called christofle rio
He plays the alto sax like me..
and gt scammed into tenor.. like me..
and found his way somehow back into alto.. like me..
but..! im still going back to tenor after christmas concert
whereas he has no more band pracs.. and if he gets into saf band he'll probably
play alto.. haizz..
im hoping for a miracle.. and hoping fary will help me..!
but if really cannot its alright.. i wont blame you fary.. wont blame anyone..
oh and he likes to jam on the alto sax.. like me.. lol

anyway.. bandfest finale was today..
we performed 3 pieces at the esplanade..
Festival March, Prelude Siciliano Rondo and Japanese Graffiti XII
My very first esplanade performance.. lol.. so noob right..
and.. honour band got to play El Camino Real....!!!!
hai yarh.. sian.. i wanted to play it lar..
but nvm.!!. the memories of El Camino Real shall only remain wif FSB.!

Oh on my way back home.. i saw this in the sky tonight..

I Dont think u can see anything.. lol..
But basically its a "pentagon" shape..
Right in the center of the pentagon would be orion's belt..
Orion's belt is the star constellation which has 3 stars lined up in a straight line
I love just staring at the night sky and looking at the stars..
i would really love to lie on the beach and just stare at the sky.. haha
anyway shall upload bandfest pictures soon.. i hope

2007-12-06T07:23:00.000-08:00

6th December 2007
My birthday was such a great day..
It started not so well but it was so much better later on..
I had BAND PRACTICE from 10-6.
It was alright except for all those scoldings from dr lee and ms sng..
and also being extremely tired from playing tenor..
im still not used to playing tenor lar..
i want to play alto!!! =(
seriously want to play alto..
pls fary lemme play alto..??
pls pls?

When we went for lunch, my section ppl bought me
a cheesecake from crystal jade..!
i was just telling irna what cake i liked
and i totally didnt expect they wld buy it for me..!!
it was really sweet and thoughtful of you guys..
thanks alot !! =)) i really appreciate it!! =))

I went to suntec's tony roma's after band wif jy, hf and isaiah..
didnt expect isaiah to turn up though.. but thanks for coming anyway!! =)
we had the roma fest and family fest..
woah.. their baby back ribs were GOOD man..
yum yumm.. annabel's feeling hungry.
anyway.. they tricked me into thinking the carrier for the crumpler bag
was by birthday present!.. zzz
ya and they gt me a myuk wallet too. shld let u guys see it.
anyway thanks alot everyone for such a nice and memorable birthday..
thanks to all the ppl who stayed up to msg me..
and those we msged me from overseas.. thank you guys alot!
Happy Birthday TO Me !

2007-12-02T08:08:00.000-08:00

《彩虹》歌词：
作曲:周杰伦作词:周杰伦

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕
没有理由我也能自己逃

你要离开我知道更简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

RAP
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

sorry i didnt listen to you wholeheartedly
sorry i didnt try my hardest to remember everything abt you
sorry i went too far too fast
sorry i took you for granted
sorry i couldnt do want u wanted me to
i was really dumb to let this chance slip by
i dont even know what are u thinking
i always get put on hold
i really wanna start over
i honestly want to know u better
i hope u give me another chance
i hope you forgive me
you keep certain things from me
you ignore me
you make me feel as if im not impt to you
you make me sad
but i want to be happy
but i want you
but i want to change for you
but i want to hope...
i want to hope...
pls give me another chance?
and forgive me?

2007-11-25T06:56:00.001-08:00

zzz sian lah.. i dont want tenor........
aiya.. dont think many ppl know what it feels like...

im so sian now!
annabel went to hong kong =(
wantheng and hazel and limin went to china for ocip!! =(
only vivien's here in singapore wif me attending band practice.. -.-

raarrr.. i have band practice on my birthday!!! hw freaking sad is that..
and i have band practice 2 days after too.. haiz
i really dont wanna play tenor for concert and bandfest..
comeon lah.. its just 2 events?? its all gonna pass by december..
i've practiced all the parts for alto for the concert already..
and less than 1 month to the concert u want to throw me into tenor
and a new band some more?
to learn entirely new things?.. hah.. how fun

blargh.. its so sad the band gang doesnt meet up anymore..
hai.. i really hope we at least get to meet up tgt wif everyone
at least once b4 this yr ends..!
we nv met once this yr !
haiz. i wanna change my blogskin soon..

2007-11-17T07:31:00.000-08:00

OH THANKS SOOO MUCH FARRYYYY !!
THANK U THANK U THANK U THANK U!
thank u fary for letting me stay in alto.!
u dont know how much that means to me..
thank u thank u thank youuuu..!

i made a wish on a shooting star about you! =D

2007-11-14T08:25:00.001-08:00

Today was such a awesome day!

Ok first..vivien was at the cold storage bus stop waiting for me..
i was on the 970 and 77 was infront of my bus.
i thought.. ai ya nvm lah.. just wait for the next 77.
turned out.. 77 took 40 mins to come..
vivien and i almost died on the spot..
and we were starving!

Anyway.. we finally reached botanic gardens!!
ive nv stepped into botanic gardens in my whole life..
lol.. we walked.. and walked.. and walked to symphony lake..
den we set up our mats and set down and eat food!
there were muffins baked by yi hui!
vivien brought potato salad..
annabel brought.. i dunno what.. lol
jack brought sandwitches made by his mum..
limin brought packet drinks..
wantheng brought plates and spoons and cups... i think
and then.. u muz be wondering..
why packet drinks nid to have cups
lol.. ans: yi hui screwed up! hahaa
but thanks alot alot yi hui!! for spending so much time
and effort to plan this class outing for us..
THANKS YI HUI! AND NAT! who helped yi hui!
thanks alot!

after that shu shan, eleanor, jiing jiunn and some first 3 months girl.. dunno her name.. came to join us!
i realize all those who were late are in my pw grp.. hahaha.. ok nvm
haha.. later we played bridge and frisbee..
and we journeyed to cheryl lee's hse.......

Haha.. her house.. is humongous and extremely beautiful..
i mean... wah.. fit for a rich kid.. hahahaha
when i saw it i was soo amazed....
ive nv seen such a big house in my life..!..
lol.. haiz.. too bad i had to leave early..
but its ok.. i could go see my sec school classmates in a chalet for bbq!!
im still hungry... didnt do much dere probably coz i came so late..
played a few games of bridge and asshole dai dee..
hahaha.. jy and i were owning so baaad..
both of us were either king or queen
and gt 1 or 2 games we win game without the other players clearing a single card.... hahaha
pawnage..

okay annabel soon and vivien tham!..
i want my photos!!!!...

2007-11-11T08:54:00.000-08:00

Why study in JC?

1. Better carrer choices..
Better carrer choices for MOST.. nt all.. but Most for more money..

2. Dunno what carrer to choose yet..
Scared choose wrong course in poly..

3. No idea.. ppl think JC better so i just go..

I think of all the choices i belong to number 2..
But.. isint most ppl studying in the JC to get better qualifications and earn more money for themselves?
So that they can get better paying jobs to have higher salaries and more comfortable lifestyles for themselves?
Have a higher standard of living so they can benefit THEMSELVES ?

haha.. it might not seem obvious but i guess the goals of most students would
be earn more and more and more money..
money money money..
all just for themselves...
its kind of selfish if u think about it..
and how many of these people who achieve their goal of having a high paying job
actually give to the needy and benefit others besides themselves?
Very few i reckon...

So... Whats the point of studying!!!!
U study.. to earn the cert.. to get a better job.. to have more money.. to benefit yrself..
y nt be a road sweeper or something.
at least u benefit society!!..
haiz.. don see the pt of studying so hard..
all u probably need is a o level cert to get u a decent job
to live life wif all the neccesities..
anyone can tell me the pt of studying..???

Argh.. blogger lags..
ill post sd1 photos when it stops lagging!
or maybe is MIO
MIO SUUUUUUCKS

2007-11-01T07:56:00.000-07:00

WARNING: DO NOT OPEN MY BLOG WITH MOZILLA FIREFOX

i went out wif yi hui, annabel, wantheng and jiing jiunn todae to bugis!
stupid vivien couldnt come.....
We watched stardust!
i think stardust is alright...
errr.. fyi its not a lame farytale
so dont think it is..
After that we went to bugis something..
where gt alot of shops selling clothes one..
haha sian..all over gt girl clothings..
but nvm its ok.. had fun in the end!
yi hui! dont be a spoilt girl anymore!!!
hahaha...

2007-10-31T00:59:00.001-07:00

PW IS OVER!
CHINESE IS OVER!
YAY! =)

Wantheng, Annabel, Jack Choo, Victoria and I went to yi hui's hse after pw!..
Shes got a really cute dog called jack.. lol
We watched the maid..
damn stupid show.. i think its funny.. haha
yi hui's mum ordered pizza for us!
soooo niceeee..! thx yi hui's mum!
ahah.. and i got pawned by yi hui in little fighter..
wth..... sian.. muz start training again..
i will win u yi hui!
Before that we went to swensons for lunch
and wantheng ponned fencing to go out wif us.. tsk tsk

Ive realized my class is damn cool...
i just found out my classmate's mum is the ceo of S_N__E_
and her surname is lee..
lol.. and the best bowler in sg is in my class too!
she supposedly won the nationals..
cool right..
And of coz.. not to forget..
ppl like m.. Ah hem..
makes it so much more cooler..
haha

Yes...! finally everything is over..
i feel so much more free now..
haha.. it feels good to have NO MORE PW
lols.. nt that my pw grp sux or anything..
but i just hate pw..
life is goood noow...
i shall be emo no more..
i can do it!!

currently: DII ing.. eh anyone got cd key for D2 and not playing?
pls pls.. i nid..

2007-10-27T06:50:00.000-07:00

Final results:
Econs B
Chem C
Bio C
Chinese C
Maths E
Gp E

Hazel and wantheng came over to my hse on thursday! Hazel ponned GP while me and wantheng ponned chinese. Hazel wanted to come over to practice the duet from secret!!..
i mus say we were pretty good for first timers!! hahaha
After that.. i was playing the piano and both of dem ended up sleeping on my sofa..
my songs muz be too boring.. haha
they both left at ard 6 coz wantheng had to go and tuition some p1 korean kid on science..
parents nowadays arh... haiz... sad sad children..
they shldnt do this...

hai.. suddenly like no mood to continue blogging...
this is killing me...
i cant stop myself.........from thinking about.....

2007-10-19T03:07:00.000-07:00

Promo results:
Econs - B
Chinese - B
Gp - D
Chem - D
Bio - E
Math - S

ZzzzzzZ.. sian

currently: love-deficiant

2007-10-16T10:57:00.000-07:00

ive always admired you from afar
never daring to go close
but always wanted to be near
you've changed me so much
ive always been grateful
to meet someone like you
perhaps it was a wishful thinking
perhaps i was just confused
but all i started to realize was
i am unable to live each day
without the thought of u in my mind
months passed so quickly
and so patient was i
always feeling i was never good enough
always feeling i could never match up
always changing myself because of you
i have a many times been hurt
but i still carry on
i needed proof for myself
proof that fantasies come true
that i can deserve someone like you
proof that this is real
that my feelings for you were true
at the end of that wait
i finally saw a glimpse of hope
which so quickly faded away
that sweetness at night
that joy in the morning
that anxiety throughout the day
had made me truly happy
a first in many many years
i could have been imaginating
but how wonderful it was
i couldnt care if it was real
my dreams reflected my joy
and i often woke up with a smile
but after awhile i awoke
i was pulled back to reality
but the thought of you
never left me
i continued to wait
but i couldnt take the pain anymore
i just couldnt take the pain anymore
i dont think i can continue like this
how i wish things would have been different
but im glad.. glad for you..
that you are starting to walk out
and start again anew
i have never stopped admiring you
and shall never will...

2007-10-15T07:30:00.000-07:00

You Should Play the Harp

You are a sensitive soul, with a great admiration for beauty.
You definitely have what it takes to make beautiful music, but most instruments are too harsh for you.

You are subtle, shy, and even a bit spoiled. You're very picky about most aspects of your life.
It's just your style to play an eccentric, hard to transport instrument like the harp that few people consider.

Overall, you have the relaxed demeanor of a leisurely upper class person, and your music would reflect that.
Your calm yet soulful harp playing would be sure to help people forget their troubles for a while.

Your dominant personality characteristic: your zen-ness

Your secondary personality characteristic: your quiet independence

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

2007-10-11T09:58:00.000-07:00

AC Games today!!

We had floor ball and bench ball.
1st match floorball: 1sd1 vs 1sb7
sian... all the hockey players..-.-
shermaine png goal keeper..lol

First goal: 1sb7.. i dunno by who..
Second goal: 1sd1! by me!.. lol..
Third goal: 1sb7.. but according to elson it went through the outer post..
but nichole mao our referee declared a goal for sb7..
Den few seconds later game ended... sian..
Haha.. but hor.. this hockey player in sb7 so ji dong..
cannot score den anyhow throw stick on ground.. haha..
Dunno whats his problem.. Scared lose face to floorball noobs arh.. lol
Anyway.. good goal keeping by shu shan!
Go sd1 !

Our second match was a walkover for the other team..-.-
Dunno they nv organize properly or what.. den say not enuf time so the other team won

Third match walkover for us.. -.-
the other team didnt turn up..
lol.. so crap

Benchball!..
Erm.. objective of the game is to get all yr team players up on the bench by scoring
Abit like captains ball but this time theres 3 teams and 2 balls.
At first SD1 was leading!!.. we had good teamwork maaan..
but the last few players took too long to get on the bench.. so we lost =(
i was the last person to not get up the bench... argh. sorrie!

Was suuuper tired after that.. my soles were like rotting lah..
my shoe also spoil.. zzz
i liked that shoe... haha
maybe can super glue and save it..!
Nv tot i'd WANT to go to school.. haha
guess it keeps me from having too much time to think too much.
SD1 rox!

Changed my blog song.. i luv this song!.. i luv the jazzy grove.. haha..
Enjoy!

2007-10-09T08:36:00.000-07:00

Ho Kai Shyuan..!!..
Lol.... Owe him lunch according to him..
All thx to him!!
Ahaha..
WHee! Thx alot!..
Really!
Can't mention wad he helped mi wif.. in case he gets into trouble.. haha

Ahhhh.... feel so sian these days....
Ive been ignoring my feelings and probably the situation now..
What shld i do?
.......
Just dunno what to say anymore..

Miss watching CSI !
Haii.. everytime coz muz sleep early den cant watch..
now can watch le..!!

Shu shan u owe me a treat..=P

Went out wif sd1 on thursday after chem.!
Sorry guys for being so sian at first..
actually to tell u the truth i didnt really feel like going..
but after someone said some random word i just felt better!..
haha.. thx guys..

2007-09-12T08:01:00.000-07:00

You Are 68% Gentleman

You are definitely a gentleman. You're very considerate and you have excellent manners.
Occasionally, you slip and do something foolish... but usually no one notices!

Are You A Gentleman?

You Are a Yellow Crayon

Your world is colored with happy, warm, fun colors.
You have a thoughtful and wise way about you. Some people might even consider you a genius.
Charming and eloquent, you are able to get people to do things your way.
While you seem spontaneous and free wheeling, you are calculating to the extreme.

Your color wheel opposite is purple. You both are charismatic leaders, but purple people act like you have no depth.

What Color Crayon Are You?

You Are 8% Emo

You're the furthest thing from emo. Sensitivity is not something you exactly cultivate... and you can't imagine weeping over song lyrics.

Are You Emo?

There's Not a Violent Bone in Your Body

You're cool and collected, even when someone really gets under your skin.
And while you don't blow up when you're angry, you know how to express your anger calmly.
You don't bottle emotions up or let them get out of control. For you, violence would never be an option.

Could You Be Violent?

2007-09-06T01:52:00.000-07:00

Went to sel's hse to study yesterday
and we had chocolate fondue!!..(pic coming soon)
Woah... joa ate till her whole face got.. meesy girl.. lol
Was looking at their r and d videos and i was seriously amused..
haha.. sel and i are learning the piano duet in secret!!.. cool arh..
its the one they cross hands.. haha.. its on my blog btw..
Ive been studying either at joa's or sel's hse these few days..
haizz.. reallie missed hanging out wif dem..

Hope CCA ends soon so i can start studying properly.. hai.
takes up so much of my time.. sian
Den plus im not that happy in it anyway..
dont know y im still staying..

sux to be in band...

2007-08-16T04:58:00.000-07:00

Founder's day photos!!!
Shall upload more when i find more.. haha

2007-08-15T06:49:00.000-07:00

i changed my blog song..
i think the other one was quite horrible..
calling out to all blog template ppl..: anyone can help me change my skin!!
yr help is greatly appreciated! =)

school without lessons is cool!
but school on the whole sux..
haiz..

Presenting... Fairfield Alumni Winds!!!

Woahaha.. although i wasnt there for the finale..
i am proud to say i performed in this band
they sounded so great from where i was sitting!
haha.. the seniors were real friendly too!
Nice experience... =)

2007-07-30T09:53:00.000-07:00

Its 12.53! lol..
Currently im helping someone with work.. =D

SD1's cool.. haha. the whole class is cool lah!.. haha

Anyway thx wan theng.. for listening to my sob stories..
Thank u vivien for being such a nice friend in band and class!.
Thank you annabel for going home wif me..
and thank you cheryl for being such a good pw group member!
Thanks sharyl for having so much fun wif me! i appreciate it.. =)
And thx for the TWO drawings..! hahaha
thx nat for being dere so i wont feel so awkward wif so many girls..
thx the whole class anyway!!
Anyone want help me remake my blog.. which according to someone it sux..
And im too lazy to even try to remake it.. hahahaha

is it worth the wait u can nv tell..
but at least u know u tried..
and u can only hope and pray..
and nv lose faith..

2007-07-24T03:49:00.000-07:00

I ponned school today..
For many reasons..

Melodies of life
Alone for a while I've been searching through the dark
For traces of the love you left inside my lonely heart
To weave by picking up the pieces that remain
Melodies of life, love's lost refrain.

Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why.
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye.
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold.
In my dearest memories, I see you reaching out to me
Though you're gone, I still believe that you can call out my name

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine
Adding up the layers of harmony
And so it goes, on and on
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds, forever and beyond.

So far and away, see the bird as it flies by
Gliding through the shadows of the clouds up in the sky
I've laid my memories and dreams upon those wings
Leave them now and see what tomorrow brings.
In your dearest memories, do you remember loving me?
Was it fate that brought us close and now leaves me behind?

A voice from the past, joining yours and mine
Adding up the layers of harmony
And so it goes, on and on
Melodies of life,
To the sky beyond the flying birds--forever and beyond

If I should leave this lonely world behind
Your voice will still remember our melody
Now I know we'll carry on
Melodies of life
Come circle round and grow deep in our hearts
As long as we remember

This is where my nick originated.
Its NOT a emo nick.. haha.

is it worth the wait?
am i just waiting in vain?

2007-07-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

For yr info.. i didnt write those tags on my tagboard..
some bell did it..

OK... im supposed to be doing eom now but cheryl
hasnt replied me..

Is it destined for you who you can be steady wif and who can u not?
Is it possible to look at two people and tell whether they suit each other.?
How'd you feel if one day someone told you,
ai ya this kind of guy wont fall for you one lah..or,
i can just tell that they wont be together one lah.or,
someone tells u that u and this person who you've admired for so long
wont get together because that person will nv fall for you one..
just not compatible lah..

I guess u wont know untill, well someone just casually tells u.
Im not saying its that person's fault to give u his/her honest opinion
i mean by all means.. say what u feel, tell the truth..
i guess sometimes what u say might really affect someone more than u expect?
haha.. but ai yah.. its alright lah.. lolz
dont think it was meant to harm anyway.. hahaha..

School siiiaaaannnnn!!..
wa seh.. im too tired for sch nowadays..
its like.. the june holidays just passed and i feel like having
another one month break again.
Die..... jc life suxx...
haix..
ok i shall go and play o2 now..
bb!

2007-07-11T03:59:00.000-07:00

i went to bukit batok youth home today wif isaiah, jing yi, elaine, roujun and i cant remember the last girl's name!
Ya.. so anyway.. i am NOT in interact.. juz felt like tagging along wif isaiah..
anyway..... guess wad i did there..
play dota... and gt pawned... zZz..
i havent played like.. since forever.. and they play everyday..
and that guy use gay hero like slardar..
zZz..
they have like.. a pool table plus board games like monopoly.. they have like 5 coms wif lan..
they have aircon.. and many more games..-.-
can u imagine doing that for cip and for a cca.. lolz..
ya.. anyway.. isaiah has apparently lost his mind.....
if u keep up wif his and my recent nicks.. lol
he's crazy.. and crazily in love wif.. **************
thats nt according to the no. of letters btw..
isaiah shld know who she is.. hahaha
isaiah's a sweet guy.. maybe i shld do him a favor!
right? right?.. lol.

My terms were like... screwed up.. down.. left.. right..
north.. north-west.. wadever..
ok shall nt talk abt terms..

Band's super slack now!.. we have only 1 practice a week..
and it lasts abt 1 hr.. hahaha! yay!
made a no. of band friends already..=D
We're playing for national day at queensway i think..
under the double eagle...-.- sound familiar?
and other marches la.. like the thunderer and almaro..
all like grade 1 pieces or smth..
so tts y we dont practice so much..
anyway.. we gt the scores for lord of the rings already..
and we're performing it for decemeber concert!!.. wahahaha.
pirates of the Caribbean 3's also one of the songs we'll be performing..
we'll be combining with all the acs bands.. which include acs(i) and (ip)
so.. come! haha..

yeah.. thats abt it.. gd luck to all the JJ ppl for their terms! =D
and nilawan take care ok!!.. don keep falling sick.... stay healthy!

Im also in fairfield almuni band.. zzz.. we have to play throughout the whole dinner..
which is our graduation dinner..
which is like once in a lifetime..
so its quite wasted..
so im nt sure whether to continue going or go for founder's day dinner.. hai..

2007-06-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

You want me to update right?? finee!!..
Hai yoo..!. ai ya.. actually didnt do much this holidays..
whole day band band band...-.-
Ai ya.. basically the piece we're playing
called scheherazade is abt this bodo king
who gt cheated by his wife..
who ran away with some slave..(according to eugene)
So.. the bodo king came up with a bodo idea to
marry a new wife every night and kill her after each night..
Hmmm... muz be quite exciting and*new* I mean.. so cruel..
Ya.. so the story goes that as usual the king is marrying a new wife and she iscalled scheherazde
but this time, she comes up with a plan to save her life.
She deliberately brought her sister along with her and
tells the king she wants to bid her farewell by telling her a story.
She ends the story on the climax and the
king decides to spare her life for another night just to listen to her story.
The next night, she will continue her story and end it with a cliffhanger
in order to spare her own life without the sister there of course.
This continued for a thousand and one nights
with scheherazade telling a different story each time to keep the king's interest.
After the thousand and oneth night, scheherazade ran out of stories
and she felt the king was going to kill her the next morning.
However, the king was so touched and moved by scheherazade's
stories that he came to his senses and spared his wife.
* At that span of time they had 3 kids.. (according to euguene)
Scheherazade's stories include sinbad, aladdin and his magic lamp,
ali baba and the forty theives and many more..
Personally i think the stories are very interesting and meaningful
I have the book if u want. Its called the thousand and one nights.
Yea.. that summarizes the story and we're playing a 4 movement piece
which is 45 mins long!! -.- We can just die.. and roman fest..
which im not playing.. dang..
Generally dunno many band ppl.. just those in my section, qm, welfare, scs
i think thats it.. not too sure who the pres and vice pres are.. hahaha.

2007-05-29T08:53:00.000-07:00

Go miss sng! i support u! =)

Lemme tell u what happened during band today..
Miss sng's my band teacher and gp teacher
Today she suddenly step up infront of the whole band
to address some issues..
First: "People" think miss sng runs the band like her band,
like its miss sng's band.. Everything must be done her way no matter what..
The reason why the exco is weak is because of miss sng.. and that she controls
the whole band, she doesnt accept any other ideas besides her own.
Second: "People think miss sng's intimidating and this irritates them.

She read this out to the entire band from a piece of paper.
Apparently this was what seniors currently in the band said about her
and told her in the face.
She said she felt like giving up as a band teacher..
From her tone when she read that out..
U can feel she felt really hurt by what the seniors said.
But she said she strongly believed in what she does,
and that as long as she is answerable to god, she feels no one has the right to judge her.
She told the band if u werent in the situation itself, if u didnt experience it first hand
or got to know her personally, u dont have the right to judge that person.
And she believed as long as she followed what god told her to do
she will not go wrong.

ok.. inference 1 : ( the ppl who told her this was obviously not in the exco, and had no right to judge her on how everything is made on her decision and that she controlled the entire exco. )
inference 2: ( Those ppl thought the exco was ineffective and undecisive. They were unhappy wif the exco)

ok let me continue.. So.. she first addressed how she was intimidating.
She believed how a little fear can get things done.. and how it is needed.
For example.. her mere prescence in the lt can make ppl hu are late
rush to get their things and hurry set up their instruments.
I believe so long as miss sng feels that is the most effective way
to get people moving, i think its alright.
I mean, do u believe in me that seriously fear of a person can make that person respect u?
Perhaps u might not think it is the best way to gain respect and i dont think so too, but
to get respect from such a big band in a effective and fastest way is probably through that fear.
But from my experience in class with her, she is totally not intimidating la!
Shes like.. so joke joke and don reallie scold the class at all unless she really gets very
irritated by something. But most of the time shes those kind happy teachers.
So the first time i heard them say shes intimidating, i was like huh?
She looks so harmless to mi! Its almost impossible anyone can be scared of her..

So then she explained that in class shes not how she is in band,
because in band, she believes to achieve discipline, she has to be fierce.
And i agree with her. U wont know how hard it is to control such a
large grp of ppl unless u were a leader or currently a leader.
I think those seniors reallie were insensitive abt how she felt,
and didnt think through whether what she did was necessary.
All they wanted to do is just voice their anger,
which in the first place did not affect them first hand at all!
And i believe it takes alot of courage and a keen sense of being concerned abt how the band feels
to stand up infront of the whole band and say such things.
Honestly, i think only a really nice person wld do that..=)
And i reallie believe miss sng's a nice person at heart..
It just all this gossip and speculations going around in the band..
that has come to this.
Miss sng to me will always be a good band teacher,
and a nice band teacher.. =)

2007-05-22T07:18:00.000-07:00

i just realised i havent tagged my own tagboard in forever..
Anyway.. i joined band and started practice last sat..
today was my first combined.. i muz say the band's sight reading standard is not bad..
but.. the conductor's arrogant and he himself admits it..
So i don reallie like.. haha
And.. i muz make friends from scratch! hai..
if onli any j1 fairfield sec members went besides sufrie..
so sad.. those were the fun times..

Im having band concert on 20th june!
anyone wanna come!! find mi to get tickets!
miss eunice olson playing rhapsody in blue on the piano!
cool ah?.. come buy tickets from mi! 15 bucks onli!
tag my board if u wanna buy.. haha..
ok nid to do my gp essay.. hand up tml! im dead..

2007-05-15T20:56:00.000-07:00

Hey guys.. sorrie for the super late update.
Quite busy in school..
Anyway.. ignore those previous two posts,
just me thinking too much.
Everythings fine now! =)

Anyway.. sd1 is cool man..
Jiing Jiunn! Thanks alot for designing most of the designs!
It was chao nice and good!.. haha

Thanks for all the sd1 people who spent so much time painting them!

Thanks alot! =)
My class painted on some tiles to be placed on this new
Rock wall that the school is going to build. Its like every tile has
a few people from the class on it.. it looks super cool
We combined wif 2sd1 to create this tile thing.. it reallie looks quite nice.

Anyway.. jc life is reallie sian.. sian sian sian sian sian...
argh.. wasting time laah.. haiz.
Its so not fun!.. i thought it might be more fun than secondary..
but its not!.. Fairfield sec was like the most fun time in my life la..haha
Hai.. getting past this time by trying to meet up wif sec school friends..
Reallie appreciate them alot.. thank god for them..
i dunno what ill do without all of dem..

Yay! holidays coming!.. hahaha.. so hoping to do some fun stuff den..
but after that is term exams right after holidays!.. wa lau.. so sao xing..
hai.. anyway.. selene! gd luck! hope u make the right choice.. =)

2007-05-04T06:24:00.000-07:00

Went jjc to watch soccer match between ac and jj.
i screwed my life up today..
Today's the worst day of my life..
i feel as if i lost something dear to me.

2007-04-30T20:57:00.000-07:00

Im feeling real tired and sad..
Today made me realize something abt me..
I feel so sad..='(

2007-04-28T00:38:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the super long time between updates..
There hasnt been much interesting things to blog abt..
Went to jj after school yesterday coz i didnt knoe where to go..=(
fridays are always so sad..! =(
Anyway.. i went to jj and was sitting wif xiang feng, shermaine and amanda
hearing them tell stories.. lol..
u knoe the usual. yea.. stupid amanda leong! fight with me over a vending machine!
She cannot decide what to eat.. den i help her choose the cheapest den she fight with me leh!
Wa lau.. i help her save money she come and fight.. lol.. damn pai seh la..
i bet everyone behind was looking at these two spastic ppl fighting over what to choose..
But anyway.. the main point is.. i treated them 2 bucks of food! nice right. hahaha
After tt shermaine met huifang den we go home le..
Was watching pck on the bus.. lol..veri entertaining.. haha
by then i thought going to sel's hse to stayover was confirmed already..
so i was quite happy lar.. but in the end we didnt go.. =(
felt uber sad after tt..=( sel and i were telling each other how sad we were.. haha
so!.. we decided to play gunbound!.. hahaha..
oh man.. selene still so pro!!.. and we both helped this guy in our team get a dk leh!!
woaah.. highlight of the match.. so long nv seen a dk.. hahaha
haha.. haiz.. missing all the times i played gb wif band seniors.. hai..=(
im still feeling alittle sad that we cldnt stayover.. =(
It was the only time we cld stay at selene's hse..
coz her bro's overseas and got a empty room and her mum allowed!
aww man..! so sad..=(
there goes another meaningless week in school.. =(

2007-04-14T06:06:00.000-07:00

haiz.. finally gt time to write this post..

Happy Birthday JOSHUUUAA..!!!
Yesterday suprised hor?.. haha..
Ok.. let me tell u all what happened..
I met joa at dover and we went to meet val in town who was wif jacq..
Then we shop shop shop around isetan!.. woahs. veri tiring
bag super heavy and gt heavy stuff to carry also..
But it was worth it for joshua!. hehe.
touched hor?.. haha.. okok.. let me continue
We decided on a wallet.. after much senseless decision.. (oya baya song?)
Den we took a picture and wanted to put inside joshua's wallet
so he'll see us everyday!!! =) (L) hahaha...
den.. we went to eat KFC.. i ordered de.. cheese melts i think..
think it was okay.. but they give quite little..=(. was still abit hungry after tt.. haha
Den.. we gt the message that joshua was going home!! yay!!!! =)
So we rushed down and collected the pictures..
The picture was soo nice tt we all decided to have one in our wallet too!..
hahaha.. yay!!..
Den we took train to eunos and ask the super friendly bus guy in the informtion office..
lol.. he super funny.. joker sia.. and veri helpful! =).
haiz.. y i nv meet such nice ppl often..
Anyway we gt directions from him and took 13..
The bus uncle had no idea how to get there so we decided to ask someone on the bus..
She told us it was the bus stop after katong convent..
Lol.. we had no idea where was katong convent.. so..
joa was like saying loud loud:"where is katong? where where is katong arh?"
(she was trying to get the attention of the hwa chong guy).. lol
But she failed lar.. the guy jus ignored us.. hahaha
So.. in the end we just asked directly and made friends with him!!.. haha
We were like asking.. so how's hwa chong. lol
Apparently this guy is a j2 and gt A for pw.. wooooah..
he mentioned 85% in hwa chong get A for pw.. -.-
Ya anyway.. the auntie we asked told us to get down wif her to take 196 or 16..
For 2 more busstops..
Apparently.. she counted wrongly and we were like lost at siglap park connector
We thought this private estate infront of us was joshua's house but it was called
Ocean park!!.. so we were like lost..
Den we grabbed this guy who was jogging wif his dog and asked him..
he didnt knoe!! =(
We asked another cyclist also dunno..
den we call jane.. den jane ask us call joash..
den joash told us to look for neptune park..
but we still didnt knoe where was it..
So.. we crossed the road.. hoping to find someone to guide us..
Den!.. a miracle happened!!.. the guy who was jogging with the dog
came baq to us.. he showed us his pda phone and there was a map of the place!
Woah.. we finally knew where marine vista was..
Anyway.. to that guy.. if u used gprs to get that map for us..
We are eternally grateful to you!.. thx thx thx!!
ya.. so we reached his place.. and went 7 eleven to get kuai lapis..
hahaha.. we cldnt find cake ma!
7 eleven gt no candle so we bought matchsticks..
Den when we reached his floor.. we still couldnt open the kuai lapis!
so we jus put the matchstick ontop of the plastic covering and lighted it..
we rang the bell.. den josiah came!.. argh!.. haha.. den a few moments
later josh's mum came!.. ahh!.. the matchstick kept going off so val had to
keep sticking another matchstick.. no where to throw the used ones
so we just throw on the floor!. haha.. oops!
Finally josh came out but the stupid matchstick extinguished!..
lol!.. he caught us unprepared!.. ai ya!.. haha.. so we quickly lighted
another and sang a birthday song to him!!! hehe.
Wooaah.. all our hardwork finally paid off.. we finally suprised joshua!..
hahaha.. can tell he was utterly shocked and suprised.. lol
See joshua!.. we went through so much just to suprise u leh!..
u shld feel happy!!.. hahaha..
We.. finally...FINALLY.. had a chance to step into joshua's house..!
haha.. cool ah?. lol
After lingering in his hse and trying his sop sax.. we left and josh's father
sent us home.. i felt quite bad.. we live all the way in the west and joshua
lives in the east.. like tt reallie veri bad to his father..=( but he insisted
veri much.. we cldnt even try to take a cab.. anyway.. thx joshua's
father for giving us a ride home!.. we all appreciate it alot!! =)

Haha.. honestly ive nv been suprised at home b4.. so i have no idea how it feels.
but im sure it feels great.. haha.. happy birthdae joshua!! =)

2007-04-07T23:52:00.000-07:00

Wow.. its raining soo heavily outside now..
Rain kind of makes me feel relaxed and comfy in my home =)
Theres just this nice feeling.. =)
I hope u guys out dere dont get wet!! lol...

Ahh.. next week there are soo many tests!..
Jc life is So not fun laar... its boring!! =(
But.. the good thing is.. I like my 1sd1!!
Yay!.. haha.. the teachers are great.. my classmates are great..
haiz.. i guess it was reallie god's will for me to be in here..
reallie makes my time in AC much better.. =)
Oh.. and for those who dont knoe.. i don reallie like AC
I wld definately choose another school if there was one..
but it seems ac is the best so far. yar..
to those nt in ac.. i reallie hope u can find something u like abt yr school!
maybe a nice classmate or maybe a nice cca with nice ppl
Im sure in every school theres gotta something for u!
so dont feel bad youre in that school ok? because god had a purpose for u there
and u gotta find it! gogogo!

My wish is for everyone to be happy in their school.. cheers!

2007-04-02T04:24:00.000-07:00

Saturday!.. was one of the happiest days of my life. hahaha..
I got to meet joa, val, joshua and solean!!.. lol..
Too bad issac, grace and naomi cldn't come...=(
Eh!. ppl look!.. one of the happiest leeeh..
U guys shld be happy..haha

Anyway.. we went to NLB at bugis to study..
We gt chased out of the 1st floor!!
Those two little THINGS.. lol
and we were blocking the way also lar..
so we went up and sat in a mosquito infested area..
ALL of us gt bitten.. hahaha.. happy feeding mosquitos.
After studying till 9 we went to.. i dunno where.. lol!
KFC lar.. somewhere.. for dinner.. den starbucks..
Apparently.. the waiter gave joshua attitude for wanting to change cheese cake which was watery..
ya.. so he was quite pissed.. but he was ok after a while.. tts good!

After that josh went off first and we were supposed to take mrt home but
The last train left alreadi!!.. -.-
No choice but to take a lift from val's dad..
Can tell he was quite not happy..
so.. val!.. When i learn driving.. i promise ill send u home everydae if its late ok!.. haha..
So we sat down and started talking...
I miss talking to u guyz!!! alot!!.. ='(
and val said smth so sweet!..
(L) *type this in msn*
HAHAHA!

here are the photos!

2007-03-22T06:04:00.000-07:00

First week of sch was great!
Just whole dae wif nilawan, isaiah, sufrie and darren.
So fun lar.. go lectures together.. eat together.. stone together.. hahaha
Nilawan and I totally pang seh our class to be wif sufrie darren and isaiah.. lol
Oh.. and i changed to bio!!.. yaaay!.. haha..felt sooo relieved..!
Physics reallie veri bad in ac.. woah.. cant stand it..
But the bad side is.. im in 1sd1! and no ones in 1sd1.. =(
Isaiah darren and sufrie hu are taking to same combi are all in 1sc3!!..
ARgh.. this sux.. i cant believe it..
Heres the thing.. AC's first week is lecture only week..
To facilitate make up lectures in the afternoon..
So only for this week everyone has the same timetable and so we can all hang on tgt!
But once next week starts.. ill be with my class the whole day..
And it'll be reallie hard to meet..!..=(

Wad's gonna happen to us after lecture only week?
Are we all gonna seperate.. nv to see each other but onli a few times in sch?
Are we gonna lose that friendship we spent so much time to build?
Is ac what i really want? or do i reallie want something else..
Everything feels veri pessimistic now.. like theres nothing good to look forward to..
Really missing the old times.. Wonder if it can ever be the same again..

Wonder if everyone will stay the same.. Wonder if i can ever change..
Wonder if ill ever be.. the person ive always wanted to be..
Wonder if courage will support me... or disappointment will cripple me..
Wonder if what i get is reallie what i want.. or perhaps getting isint abt wanting?
Wonder what god holds in the future for me.. but ill pray untill it comes to me..

Something's definately missing in my life.. and i just cant find what..
Its a terrible feeling.. i reallie miss u guys!!.. Band gang.. jy and hf.. and 4f!..
Im gonna miss even ppl in ac.. =(
After tutorial starts.. its almost impossible for us to meet.. except for a few times b4 school and after sch or inbetween breaks..
I cant see any joy for what lies ahead..=(

2007-03-08T06:57:00.000-08:00

O2!!..Haiz.. i felt quite bad pang sehing my og but what to do..
haha.. ok.. shall nt let tt person feel bad..
i did it out of my own free will!

O2 was nt as fun as O1 lar.. but still quite okay..
But i muz admit.. i think my og like more orientized..
spend less time doing nth.. lol

ya.. so stuck wif tt person the whole day..
so tt person wouldnt feel so lonely and sad..=(
Haha.. someone else came and join us.. so all together it was quite fun!

After o2.. rushed back home to get junyang's b'dae present..
Den.. decided to get a cake for him while at my busstop.
Lol.. i think i was so mentally exhausted that i became chao blur.
First.. i took 176 to bukit batok.
Walked all the way to the cake shop.. which was quite far
Bought a cake..
Din quite know how to get to coronation
so use my gan jue and took 77..
which turned out to be the wrong bus..(not suprisingly)
Got down at kap and took 171..
after missing like 4, 5 buses which i din know i could take
Lol.. was nightdreaming and missed coronation by 5 stops!
Den crossed the road to take 170 in the opposite direction..
Got down 1 bus stop too early..
And therefore took 66 for 1 bus stop..
Lol.. so all together i took......
5 buses!!!.. when i cld have taken 2..
haiz.. lolz

yeah.. so in the end i cld FINALLY meet up wif dem and celebrate birthdae!..
Yay..! lol
Ooh.. im going jj nite tml..
JJ here i come!!

2007-03-04T03:25:00.000-08:00

Went to watch happily never after..
Advice: Youre in for a kids fairytale show..
Unless u have a longing for kids fairytales..
Do Not watch it..

Ok.. Erm.. Actually this post goes out to all those
Anxious ppl who shld feel the most anxious..
Erm.. those who just meet the cut off.. yar..

May god shower his blessings on u..
And in the end.. Go to the place you are meant to be..
Amen..

2007-02-24T02:40:00.000-08:00

ff9!! oh yeea..!! I Finished ff9!!!
HURRAY!
zidane soo sweet!!. haha
And so was dagger!!!.. ohh maaan..
they were meant for each other maaan...
sweet sweet sweet..
hahaha..
hope this is not considered spoiler??
All the final fantasy series rox man..
You guys out dere shld SERIOUSLY play it..
lolz

Hmm.. update on life..
gt kind of upset by wad someone said..
but.. i guess.. its probably partly my fault..
I shldnt expect too much.. haha
I guess if u reallie deserve it you'll get it bah..
Nvm.. i mus try harder! I can do it!!.. hahaha

School sux laar.. hahaha..
Sianz.. 2 yrs of meaningless bullshit..
THIS IS RIDICULOUS!!
lol..
anyway.. gd luck to those awaiting their jae anxiously!!.
Wish u all the best man..

2007-02-14T04:55:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!! Haha.
To people who didnt recieve any valentine's gift..
Just know there are ppl out dere loving u!!. haha..
Just that they dunno how to express it...

I spent my day with my shi mei pig and hf.. hahaha
Deen.. for dunno what reason.. we spotted enting and rushan!
So... i spent my valentine's day wif 4 girls.. -_-
We watched Ghost Rider..!
Not bad lah.. i like all marvel movies maan..
Yea.. after tt we went home liaoz..
I still think I cld have talked more..
So.. heng xian lah.. ya..

Anyway.. im going ac science!..
Im reallie undecided abt bio or phys..
sianz.. don wanna think liao..
Shall go watch tv!.. ciao..

2007-02-09T17:53:00.000-08:00

Happiness is best shared..
To all the people who did well..
Congrats!
But to all the people who didnt do well..
This post goes out to u..

Cheer up ppl!!!.. =)
Pick yourself up and work harder!!
You can do it!!
You can achieve your dreams!!
I believe in you..
So does the lord!
The magic comes from u..!
So try harder.. work harder..
And get up on your feet again
to pursue your lifelong dream... =)
P.S I'll be praying for all of u!!.. =)

2007-02-05T06:41:00.000-08:00

Im must write this post to remind myself how unpredictable life can be..
I've jus heard the most unfortunate news..
All i wanna do now is reach out my hand and help..
I dunno how but i wanna offer anything i can..

My greatest wish and prayer is for her to get back up..
Although it will seem like a part of her is lost forever..
I really hope God will create miracles and heal the wounded..
help her overcome her sorrow, her pain, the strongest desire to cry.
Lord, guide her with your ever so comforting words.
Strengthen her with all your might
And Love her with the greatest love that only you can provide
For you are God.
In jesus' name. Amen.

2007-01-30T23:09:00.000-08:00

Im missing fairfield VERY VERY MUCH!!!
i miss the band gang! i miss the sufrie gang!
i miss miss lee, miss liang, all the other teachers and even wong chung hei!!
haha.. i miss her.. "GOOD MORNING CLASS!".. haha..
i miss miss lee's crapping!. i miss 4f! i miss soo many things abt fairfield..!!
Im starting to miss penguin's all so exciting speeches.. haha.. i miss library recesses!
i miss elsa's all so random stories abt the shows she watch!! hahaha..
i miss them all soo badly..=(

Im starting to dislike my class.. haiz.. reallie don wanna think abt it..
nvm.. fairfield was soo soo soooooo much better than ac.. SO much better..
I think i wanna retain!!!.. hahaha.. Man! why cant they have a fairfield jc!!!
Why Why Why!!.. Its so not nice..... =( sobs.=( Juniors in fairifeld..
Pls pls appreciate your time there!.. its reallie reallie great..
haiz..

2007-01-24T05:40:00.000-08:00

Ok ppl.. heres the thing..
Whos sick and tired of studying say I !!!
Whos recognizes the vicious cycle of exams..!!
Studying to me onli has one meaning..
To get that uni cert.. And its reallie getting veri tiring

Whos up for more??
It all repeats itself again.. Studying.. tests den exams.. den studying.. tests and major exams..
It doesnt cease to exist.. Even if u think youre done with studying after the uni..
Theres work!! And whats work but a major test of what youve learned everyday..
Its pointless if u think abt it.. haha.. So heres the point.. Im glad to have known god.. =)

Ac.. haiz.. I don reallie fancy my class.. Im not saying its bad or anything
but i jus don click with anybody there!
Maybe ive not tried hard enough.. Maybe its my fault..
But being with my class now isint that enjoyable..
Except for chinese classes.. hahaha.. they kind of remind me of kang yong zhi in chinese class..
4f ppl should know what i mean.. haha

2007-01-19T08:45:00.000-08:00

American idol spoof..

2007-01-15T03:30:00.000-08:00

Yay!.. My first piano lesson in like 3 months!
Im veri happi lar..
My piano teacher seems nice!!
Shes u know.. veri concerned abt the small things
For example.. She like always ask me what things i like b4 giving me the book?
And She chose all my piano books according to the composers for my grade 8 exam pieces..
Yea.. And shes not fierce in implementing her skills!
The best of all.. SHE COMPLIMENTED MY SIGHT READING!!
Awww maaan.. NO ONE has ever ever said my sight reading was good leh!!
Hahaha.. goodness.. I've like almost failed or failed sight reading for all my piano exams..
And she kua wo!!.. haha.. feel so happy..
hey joa! she kua my sight reading leh!! u shld be jealous.. hee hee =)
haha.. what more can i hope for..
Yay Yay..
I hope these two years wif her will be swell!

2007-01-12T19:24:00.000-08:00

Lectures were boring!!!
argh.. haha.. but there were some fun moments

Moment no. 1 : Chem lecturer CANNOT pronnounce hydrogen..
She goes Harogen.. Den we were like.. HUH?? The lightest element
is harogen..
I was going ???
New element arh??.. everyone in the lt kept laughing when she said harogen..
haha..

Moment no. 2: Gp teacher succeeds in keeping ppl's attention!..
She was explaining abt how the topic sentence can be in the top..
Middle or end..
She said.. U can choose whatever position u want your topic sentence to be..
It can be the top, middle or end.. Just pick the correct position to suit your needs..
ok.. that sounds sexual... haha.. den everyone laughed.. Not Bad!.. everyone
was paying attention..

Moment no.3 : This is not fun.. but jus.. ai ya.. u will knoe later on
Lecture xxx.. I scared i kenna.. Stupid Lecturer yyy freaking thinks he's so big..
Starts scolding everyone when they come in.. Using fierce words and all..
Making ppl who got no lecture notes stand in front for no reason..
Ppl don wanna do some dumb calculation mus shout: Take out your pen and write down the answers now!. Wah.. no wonder they say the lecturers in subject xxx suck.. Im seriously
considering switching to the other subject liao.. Cannot take it..

Thats abt it la.. Anyway ive jus realised how hard it is to make frens.. with girls especially..
Im.. haha.. hopeless at doing that la.. Always stand arnd dem and got nothing to say..
Quite sad..=(

2007-01-12T19:14:00.000-08:00

OG Outing!
What was suppose to be a fun time in a ring
turned out to be a disaster..
Ok.. maybe it wasnt THAT bad..

1. Og got internal division..
Ppl who disagree with skating went to play pool..
ZzZ.. So anti-social..

2.When the skating grp got the jp..
the ring was closed!!!..
Omggm..
Haiz.. we went to chevrons to bowl instead..
Turned out to be cheaper!.haha..

3.Went to je to meet the 'poser' group so as chu ting says..
oh ya.. shes the Og Ic btw.. Hung ard.. took neoprint..
waited till si jay came at 7.30..
that was a 40 min wait!!

4. Sat arnd till 9..

Moral of the story is.. the ppl who went to play pool are not nice!!

2007-01-06T09:13:00.000-08:00

oYES!!.. Orientation overr..!! Wheee..
Whoa.. Damn tired seh..
But. Haha.. although everything was pretty screwed up..
expecially during campfire..
overall was ok!.. Expecially during the end man..
Dance like mad.. haha..
Nv knew dancing could be so fun..
hahaha..

I really hope the others had fun!
Even if u didnt its ok....
Im sure u will find your own sense of joy..=)

Oh yes.. another person from my OG group whom i think is nice is yun quan..
Wa.. this guy damn....funny..haha
He's like SUPER forgetful.. Super STM..
His sooo blur laa..
Oh man..
He keeps forgetting my name..!!!
First... he thinks im some other guy..
den after i tell him im not..
he forgets my name..
i ask him 5 mins later.?.
And he still forgets!!
Wah.. another 5 mins later!!..
he forgets again!!..
I ended up telling him my name 5, 6 times la..
Haha.. He's like those blur blur type..
Ppl tell joke he'll be like sitting dere..
HUH?..
Den explain slowly he also HUH?
den everyone just gave up..haha..
But i think he's nice!..
I felt that kind of nice feeling..haha..
Haven felt that in a long time..=(

Actually im quite scared to make frens..=(
I scared it wont turn out well..
or i say something wrong..
or i offend the person..
or when im wif the person.. the person feels so sian that he/she doesnt wanna go with me..
Haiz.. so many fears..
I just guess i have to put my trust in god and hope for the best....

2007-01-04T04:55:00.000-08:00

Im soo sun burned!..
wah sian..
i dunno why la!
But my skin veri easy sunburned..
Drink abit abit of wine also red liao..
Thats so..
not guy.. haha..

Today's orientation was suuper dirty..
All the mud and water and starch!
And we learned the couple dance..
Actually im quite happy with my dance partner..
She looks like a nice person.. haha..
I really hope she is!.. Although its got nothing to with me..
Her name's dawn.. from cresent.. err.. clementi bible church..
heh.. amazing i remembered..
Orientation overall today was ok la!..

Ai ya!.. sian la tomolo..
hope got stuff for tomolo man..

2007-01-03T04:48:00.000-08:00

Orientation...... sux
Haiz.. too lazy to say how boring it was..
Im soo not looking forward to tomolo..
Haiz..

Felt so loner at the orientation lar..
No fairsians in my grp at all..
AHHH.. IM SO SIAN..
.......................................

I feel pretty screwed up..
Ok.. maybe not as screwed up as someone i know..
But im screwed up..
Too many problems ive not resolved with myself..
Too many things im so confused about
Too many things i dont know what to do..
I juz am pretty screwed lar.. haiz..

AC.. the hours are soo long!!
i think longest ive know so far besides those
in JJ having camp..
Haiz.. AC ends around 6 everyday..
.... i feel so uninterested..
And to add on to it.. the thought of
going to school in AC is depressing..
Normal school hours are from
7.30 to 4.30 ?
What de hell... CCA??
Wad kind of life lar..
dotz..

2006-12-31T06:16:00.000-08:00

2007!!
I hope next year will be more fun.!
Haha, you know you shld
do some year end reflection??
I've reflected upon these
4 years in Fairfield. All the
fun, sad, exciting, boring moments
of 2003-2006 and ive come to
a conclusion.
The three greatest things that
happened to me this 4 years
are as follows!

1. Getting to know lee junyang. Haha.. I feel very
malu writing this but nvm, i think he deserves to know. Heh..
Lee Junyang..I met him in sec 3 but only got much closer to him in
sec 4. He's actually a nice guy really despite his occasional spouting
of vulgarities.. haha. Had lots and lots of fun with him
expecially during the exam period.Stupid ass always make
fun of huifang ..lol.Wrong time to have
fun right? haha. But it made studying for O's soo much
less tiresome. This ass is just fun to be around with and
i just feel most like myself with him.I mean i feel its like really
easy to talk to him and we have so many things to talk abt.
Kind of rare for a anti-social guy like me haha .He kind of made my
social life much more interesting and im really grateful to him.
I guess the thing abt him is his sense of righteousness and principles
that he wont go against no matter what that makes him such a
nice guy. I reallie thank god for such a good and close friend. =)
Thanks ass..

2.Meeting the Band Gang! Haha.. Band gang.. It all
started during the study skills week in sec 3 in which
Ng May Gay din allow band students to participate in
because of some trainer coming to teach us. In the end,
Ng May Gay din give us that study skills. Anyway,
the eight of us were sitting in the reference room
and supposedly studying. We started playing games
and stuff like that and we formed a group soon
after!. The band gang consists of, val, joa, joshua,
selene, naomi, grace, issac and me! Haha..
I had soo much fun wif u guys! Thanks guys!
All the fun times from
All the band gang performances.. the octaves..
joshua doing funny actions.. butterfly?? hahaha..
to k box outings and juz hanging out in their houses.
All these irreplaceable moments of joy
that mean so much to me..

3. Meeting *#*#. Sorry i cant say who this is. :P
Dont try asking me either.. i won say.. haha.
This person im grateful to meet becoz
this person totally changed my perspective
of looking at things, ppl and life. Like.. changed
me inside out? i dunno.. haha. But after meeting this
person i found more meaning in life and felt depressed
less often!=)I also learned how to be nice to ppl
and help them out.. Having a heart for ppl
i guess. Thanks alot! I wouldn't be the person
i am today without you.. so.. thanks again!

Well.. thats for the 3 greatest things that happened
to me these 4 years. Oh.. and thank you
mr.lim for all the ghost stories.. and thank you
all the friends in 1c,2b,3f,4f ive made!!! This includes u darhling.. haha
Thanks guys!! For all those wonderful moments in time..=)

2006-12-30T08:01:00.000-08:00

Ahhh! Soo sian!!..
Its 12 am and its the 31st of december!!
Boo hoo!!
School's starting.. im so not looking forward to it..
Reasons are as follows:

I don like games like icebreakers!!
haha.. darhling.. got someone as anti-social as u..=)
And!.. i sprained my ankle..
So.. i won be able to participate in any games for orientation!!.
haiz.. i guess i'll sit ard and laugh at ppl get all muddy
Muahahaha.

I think i shall blog abt yesterday.. I mean the day b4 yesterday..
Class BBQ!!
Wow!!..
Just as uninteresting as all the other bbq's we had..
I think last year was better coz stefan brought drinks!!
hahaa.. too bad he couldnt come this year..

EVERYONE got pushed into the pool
except those who left early and
me isaiah sufrie and joe..

Haha.. lucky we smarter sit at the pit there
No one come ka chiao

To Darhling..
So unfair!! You didnt get pushed down rite!!
U play cheat one.. leave so early.. haha
I hope u had fun though.. even if u werent feeling well...
My deathnote!! Ni hui yue! so evil..
Make me feel so unwanted...=,(
U OWE ME A DATE!!

Oh and heres to Shermaine Png
Happy birthday to you..
Happy birthday to you..
Happy birthday to Shermaine,
Happy birthday to u!!

Happy sweet 16!! Your finally able to watch NC 16
Congrats!!

2006-12-27T09:58:00.000-08:00

Final Fantasy VIII!!
I FINALLY completed it!!
Aww man.. the story was
A W E S O M E.
High recommendation..
Play final fantasy VIII!
You wont regret it!!

Oh.. and thank you selene!!
Appreciate it alot for lending me the disk..=)

My mom's gonna get a new car
Its a nissan latios i think
haha.. im so looking forward
to the day i can drive man..
But too bad i'll most probably
wont get many chances in NS
haiz.. lucky girls..

One final fantasy down and 2 more to go!
Im planning to play ff 9 and ff 10.
Hope it'll be as good as 8!..

2006-12-24T09:43:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY!!..
I shall sing a christmas hymn for everyone!!

We wish u a merry christmas,
we wish u a merry christmas,
we wish u a merry christmas,
AAAANNNNDDDD.....
AAAAAAAAAAAA....
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Whee!!!.. haha.. ok.. i promise kaiting i'll dedicate this post to her. Teo Kaiting!!.. Thx Alot.. alot.. Alot.. alot.. and alot... for helping me girl!!.. Reallie reallie appreciate it!!! haha.. She's reallie a nice nice girl!. haha.. And as well as special thanks to joa!.. who's also a nice girl.. and.. all the others who help me with this blog. You guys made this blog a success!.. Thx a million..

Finally.. some music.. haha.
The music player is up
and i'll be adding more songs to it in time to come.
Oh.. most of my music are from Final Fantasy btw..
For those who don't know..
Final Fantasy rox.!

I hope u guys have a merry christmas
and recieve many many gifts ok!!
And Don't forget to spread the message of christmas!!!!

2006-12-23T08:38:00.000-08:00

I Cant believe it!
Its the 24th alreadi!
Chirstmas is tomorrow
and im so not in the christmas mood

Wads wrong wif me??
haiz.. I think im more worried
abt school starting...
Can u believe it...
After those hours and hours
and hours.. and days... and days..
ok.. u get my point..
Of studying and revision..
Its beginning again..

I hardly have time to relax properly la..
this sux...
Students in sg seriously have no life la...
its so terrible..

Hmmm.. wonder whats gonna happen on christmas
i think i'll leave that for tommorow..

2006-12-20T07:20:00.000-08:00

Curse of the golden flower..
I think this movie was pretty ok lar..
a tad above average.
Joshua thinks it was quite good,
but joa thinks it was ok but too gorey.
haha.. o well..
Jay did quite well..
considering this was his 1st big time movie
congrats to him!! and his fans!..

Joshua says eragon sux..=(
a waste of money..=(
WHATS SO BAD ABOUT IT!!!
I mean.. i admit its not a fantastic show
But u still gotta give it some credit!!
I really really liked the dragon lar..
Actually wad i really liked
about the movie
was the relationship between
sephiro and eragon.
Makes me feel.. touched..=)
Still feel touched right now!!
ok that sounds sick..

My brother searched my stuff to get ff8..
Not that i wont lend him of anything..
But he searched my stuff!!!
Wa lan.. Theres no such thing
as privacy in my house lar..
haiz..

2006-12-17T05:57:00.000-08:00

today..
went to watch eragon
with jy and hf.
The dragon
SO SO PRETTY LAR
AND SO CUTE!!

hahaha.. i think
im in love with that
dragon. Her name is sephiro.
Dunno whether spell correctly..

Shes REALLIE REALLIE CUTE AND NICE. Cant stand it!!
I reallie wish i had a dragon like that!! So COOL!..

Personally, i feel the movie is not a waste of money
but not excellent. i would give it... hmm.. 7 stars..
Maybe 7.5 cos the dragon so nice!.. haha..
good graphic effects though.
honestly think its better than the holiday.

And this is to val! Have a safe trip ya!! Enjoy yourself!!
Have fun!! haha.. I'll be missing and praying for you ya??
Dont think shes gonna read this
till she comes back but nvm.

2006-12-16T08:35:00.001-08:00

Yay!.. My first real post.. haha
Hmm.. Today was great!!!.. i went out with joa val and joshua to kbox..
Finally.. after so many cancelled dates.. we made it to kbox. Too bad the rest couldn't come..=(
Anyway, Joa broke a cup.. in a moment of excitement.
She was like about the bring the mike to her mouth and suddenly i heard glass crack..
Luckily, the nice kbox girl said it was ok!.. Thank goodness we didnt have to pay for it..
We had cup noodles for dinner.. at seven eleven.. haha.. My second time eating cup noodles for dinner/lunch. At least this time we ate inside.. the last time the whole saxophone section sat outside seven eleven and eat cup noodles lar.. haha.. So unglam.. But it was ok lar.. good experience..
We then sat at esplanade and had a sex talk.. hahaha.
So funny lar.. haha.. and sorry if we polluted the two pure and innocent minds..haha..(not that they were very pure in the 1st place).
Actually i never talked to girls about this kind of thing b4 leh!.. So awkward..haha..
Anyway.. it was a really great evening!!.. had so much fun!. thanks guys!!!..
Sure beats being stuck at home all day..
Oh.. and as u can see my blog is not really ready yet.. haha.. But still.. pls tag and gimme comments PLS!!!.. i really need comments.. its my first blog!.. so help me out and tag k? thx alot guys

2006-12-13T06:19:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps!!.. This is my very first and only blog. Im like super sian at home laaar!.. So.. i decided to cr8 this!!.. Remember to tag ok!.. Anyway.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAURA!!!.. YOURE 15 NOW.. SO ACT LIKE ONE!!!.. no la.. joking.. hahaha.. TAKE CARE OF THE SECTION K!